henrie dot biz bored at work

it’s a smokers paradise

ive been trying to decide if i want to quit smoking or not for a long time now.. a really long time.. i havent tried to stop in awhile.. and every time i do its half-assed. 100% half-assed.

i stopped smoking at work some time back. . but lately i started bringing cigarettes with me.. i dont smoke them.. but its comforting to know they are there. just in case. i think the winter had brought this on. i cant imagine getting stranded at work, on the way to work, on the way home with out a pack of smokes.. it would be awful..

plus smoking is like ten times better in the winter than the summer. according to me anyways.

once i get home though, i really want to smoke. weird thing though. i hate walking into the apartment and have it smell even slightly of smoke. hate it hate it hate it.

so i go from waking up at 7 until i get home at 4 without smoking..

i then generally making it 2 to three hours at home without smoking..

so around 7 i start smoking until i go to sleep. and generally have from 5 to 10, sometimes a lot more.

its weird right?

i can go 12 hours without a smoke, without really even a craving, but once the sun is down and i gotta smoke till i sleep. its weird.